Been feeling sick all day unless asleep but im not normally sick. Last night didnt even feel sick but today im being sick feeling really bad but still got a 9 year old to get to school and me to work its going to be a fun day x
Saturday, 8 December 2012
So its been a while but so much has changed. 4 weeks ago i started a new job at my sons school guess iv had my head thinking to much about anything better coming my way but it has last weekend i was sick as a dog all weekend monday i phoned work said i had tummy bug felt a little better on the monday but tuesday morning was ill again mums been taking jack to school come back and asked if i was pregneant well i thought ill do a test but i wont be i havent had a period in ages so i cant be............... BUT GUESS WHAT i am we are having a baby we think were about 7 weeks cant wait to see midwife and book scan just cant wait to see him or her. The morning sickness is bad all day bad but we are getting better. Im so tired all the time and its the first our house has been a mess which is not right for me but im sure things will change. Daddy cant wait his been a rock for me helping shame his not had time for cleaning lol well its getting close 2 bed time so best say night. Also only are mums and dads have been told so dont tell anyone till were 12 weeks xxxxxxxxxxxx
Saturday, 31 March 2012
Paul is really working hard to his putting the potatos into the growed sounds so easy but its not its long hours (mon-fri 5.30am till 7pm, sat 5.30am till 6pm, sun 5.30am-12) which will come in handly but I feel like I'm tucking up my to babys at silly early o clock every night and the house is all down to me to sort out, he wanted the fish tanks and there left down to me to clean, we have a tap that needs changing which will be left to me to get and maybe even fit, Im staying up later to do jobs once his gone to bed and there still piling up which im sure will all be done at some point just want everything done before I go into hospital incase Im layed up for a couple of days, he doesent think that I maybe starting to shit myself and thinking about it alot more as theres only 4 more days till the op and its been 15 years since I was in for an op so things change my body changes and Im hoping Im not sick like I always was when I was younger we will just have to wait and see.
Ill try get my laptop up stairs or maybe go on my phone to let you no how well it went but Wednesday Ill be sleeping most of day I hope then Thursday I would like to go out with Mum and Jack to an easter egg hunt which is hopeful thinking I feel.
Well its gone 12 at night and I guess I should be thinking about going to bed so night night sweet dreams x
Monday, 19 March 2012
Had a lovely weekend, went shopping Saturday for wallpaper and once we had it every1 wanted it up so that's what we done stripped old off Sunday morning b4 goin out for dinner for mothers day which was very yummy, got a lovely box of chocs and a teddy like we got jack at Christmas but with a lovely pink bow, Sunday nite got jack 2 bed and set 2 putting wallpaper up in hallway. It's looking lovely as u can see, just down stairs 2 do next but got 2 move fish take and tv unit out so not looking forward to that day x Monday is here and I have my pre op 2day just want 2 stay in bed all day but things to do people 2 take 2 school x
Saturday, 17 March 2012
So like always its me by myself painting the kitchen and bathroom as we hope to sell very soon, if a 3 bed becomes avable in this area which is taking its time. So of I go doing some painting the joys x
Thursday, 15 March 2012
Last night was spend sealing the kitchen so am cleaning up after the mess we made last night.
Paul started early today up just before 6am so must mean the summer is on its way, de-stoning will pay back the rest of the wedding which is lovely to finally do, He thanked me last night so I had to ask what for, It was because I was so understanding about his work????? Is that not what a wife is ment to do?? he loves his job and theres not many people that can say that so Im happy his happy. Its only every now and again that it gets me down about him working on the farm. When we get invited out and his late that really upsets me but you can understand that as I dont want to go on my own even tho he tells me to go on without him, Were together and I feel that we should do things together.
Jacks got after school club today (gardening club) which means I dont need to pick him up till 4.15pm gives me time to sort out down stairs before he gets home.
Well washing is out on the line enjoying the warm air and I best get on with this kitchen before school run.
Im feeling very lost as I havent got my best mate around me at the momment (my mum) she is my life and theres not many days that we dont see each other, hope there having a lovely holiday and the weather is as good there as it is here, cant help missing her x
Wednesday, 14 March 2012
Tuesday, 13 March 2012
Iv had Polycystic Ovary Syndrome "Pcos" since..... feels like forever, since I was 18ish, I started out by just having irregular periods, and weight gain, I went to my GP with my symptoms, bloods were done and they came back looking like iI had pcos, but I would have to wait for a scan. The NHS list was 6 months, so my mum and dad paid for a private scan to find out there and then, there was nothing needed doing at the time until I wanted to start a family which was a year later, I came of my contraceptive pill and just done things slowly, at first it was so hard every month pasted by tears from realising I wasn't going to have a baby I had dreamed of for a very long time.
But two years later it happened, I was in shock, after talking about IVF, and other ways of having a baby, there was this little baby growing inside of me, I didn't think about miscarriages, I just enjoyed my stages of pregnancy.
The more I had morning sickness the happier I was, my hormones were up and I was glowing, I was the one walking down the road with my bump, I loved from the moment it was put there.
Nine months pasted and at 10.30pm I went to hospital 6 hours later and my baby lay in my arms, my angel from heaven sent down to me after all this time, I had a baby boy Jack, 8lb 2oz and I enjoyed and still enjoy every minute of him.
Jacks 7 year old and as much as people look down on it, it was out of my hands and a very big shock to me but Jacks dad left use when he was five, so my life had to start over, Jack made me smile more then his dad ever did so it was easy to dust myself off and start dating again as hard as that was as well, but when I wasn't looking as you do I found the love of my life though a friend, we were friends at first, went out as a group with Jack he loved going places and as he is a farmer it was easy for Jack to enjoy his time with him.
His name is Paul but I call him bubble, his 20 years old and know lives with me and Jack, I never held back on telling him about my pcos, by the time I met him I was struggling with my hair, periods every 3months, weight gain and at times mood swings, low and high points which had been happening for some years.
But he was happy to take this all on so to say.
So here we are been together for coming up for 3years and Feb 2012 we are hoping to get married but we are not booking anything till closer to the time as we are trying for a baby.
I came of the pill November 2010 and have opened this blog so that people maybe like me with pcos are going though. I am going to the hospital in a couple of days time so will let you know how I get on. x
Well what a weekend, Jack came home from school Friday with a tummy bug, that + a child running around Mother (me) running around after him trying to stop him from sicking all over the carpet, I didnt win, I had to clean up 1 lot but on a plus side we have starting him into being sick in the loo which has helped me out, and as for Paul he was no help at beginning till I told him to man up which he did and helped me get carpet shampoo and kitchen roll. So Saturday was a lazy day which was lovely apart from going shop in afternoon we had a lovely arts and crafts day, with Paul at work.
Sunday was ment to be ironing, but the boys went out in the garden cutting grass, how could I stand doing that ironing when it was a lovely day, I dont think so lol. so out side I went.
Oh no BOOM it hit me Monday morning got here and it played on my mind all day, "this time next week I will be going in for my pre op :( then 2 weeks after that it will be the big day. gulp. Im sure I will keep you up dated on this as feel I may have time on my hands inbetween sleeping and taking pain killers. x
Thursday, 8 March 2012
Its another spring and all the bumps are coming out :(
Im happy for them all but its been 18 months of waiting for us, we had a relaxing honeymoon with a hot tube and after I did wonder if that may have worked, i no i shouldnt think about it so much but i do, after being close to my partner i lay there thinking is this it, is this the day it starts.
There is some good news just before the wedding and on the day its self I had my first period in 6 months so fingers crossed things r starting to work out, im still trying to loss the wieght but that is harder then I ever would have thought.
Got another hospital appointment next month so will have to wait and see what they say.
Also got a couple of ops coming up so its going to be busy around this house again, what with starting up a little craft busness that iv been thinking about for a while.
going to try get this blogg on my phone so can keep you updated more, you may not want me to talk more, please let me no your views x